Its Been Foreverrr :)

Wow! I haven't been on here and forever! :)
Gosh there's sooo many things I could write about!
I miss high school, HA never thought i'd say that in million years, but I do.
I miss getting up in the morning and having something to look forward to and keep me busy.
Now im at home and completely jobless. OHHH and i'm not in college anymore which sucks too.
So NO school or JOB ohh yeah and don't have much friends anymore. I guess Mr.Beane was right after all huh. :)
I found out i have A.D.D now which is kinda new and understandable for me.
I cant believe ive been up every morning for the last few days filling out APP's for jobs
its killing me Ive filled out over 27 apps gezzz u would think someone would have called me
by now. I've asked around to see if anyone knows in openings anywhere everyone mostly said
no people or now cutting hours. Which really i dont care alittle money is better than none I mean heck.
I would do just about anything for a job right now! Im losin my cell phone again Monday :( ughhh I dont know what im going to do without it that thing has my life on it.

I havent seen my mom in forever which sucks and i kinda have to get over now. I know why but im not gonna write it for the world to know. I just hope her boyfriend gets better and i get to see her soon.

Another thing that sucks is I dont even have the money to go to the doctor Monday to get meds for my A.D.D isnt that stupid and i dont know what im going to do about that. Their no one i can asked to tell me which really sucks :(.


This Picture really explains how ive been lately it sucks :( Im just falling apart and this time theres really no one here to pick me up but myself and its getting harder and harder. I just hope God has a plan for me cause i cant take this crap much longer.

  Anyways im going to sleep maybe I'll geting on here tomorrow and write more. Night <3

Can't do this anymore....

Have you ever had a time in your life were it was just so hard to hold on and you feel as if you have no one there for you when you need them. Well, i'm at that point if not below it :(. I know i have Alexander here as always but in my heart i feel like i'm just dreaming about our future sometimes. I am going crazy me and my mom started fighting again and she keeps saying shes gonna take everything away from me. I wanna move out i'm so sick of her! I'm not gonna be my brother and get treated like shit because she has no husband or son to mess with anymore :(. Just me as always. I have the most amazing luck, and this car wreck just topped it off. I'm so stupid for thinking my mom loved me and wanted to spend time with me and help me, she wants nothing but money. I hate my job they act like i'm useless and no wants anything to do with me. No one wants to talk or be friends, but on the other hand i dont need friends from their 95% of the people who work there are whores, do drugs, or just nasty. And friends, gosh i dont even know about that anymore. I miss hangout with tabby but its whatever, and just i dont know. i wand someone who can be there when Alexander can't. Uggghhh i'ma start looking for a roomate or something i need out of this house. I'm going to hurt myself or someone if i dont get a break its not worth the pain i feel.
Anyways it like 2 am i need to go to bed, i have a docters appt in the morning :(
maybe i'll go to school and be happy for once but i dout it ....
Anyways Night Night

Danie<3

Drama MUCH!!!!

Uh I completely hate geting put in the middle of drama. It pisses me off so freaking bad when people start crap for no reason. I never see the use for it its childish and stupid. Its like UHHHHH GROW UP PLZZZ. Anyways, why can't people be real anymore??? Why can't anyone keep friends??
UH I'm glad I keep to myself this year and have a job to keep me super busyyy. The drama ain't worth
having people hate you for no reason(mostly because of hear sayyy).
Anyways i'm outies :)
Danie<3

Just one of those days... :(

I sooo don't wanna do to work today! I'm so tired so stressed out! Alexander and me we're fighting again last night. Uh why can't we just have one happy loving night together...I miss "US" :(. I made a 93 in Mr. Beanes which is kinda crazzzzyyy and a 79 in Math which kinda suck balls. I'm trying to get into Kings and I need wayyy better grades so I can have a good GPA. I can't wait til this weekend! Saturday my familys eating dinner becasue its my moms boyfriends birthday and my cuz's also. Sunday i'ma try and go see twilight but i dout i'ma get tickets. I spent like almost all of my check :( i have like $20 left uhh yay!
anyyyways I'm outie!

Peace, Danie <3

I Miss Alexander:(

It feels like forever since i've seen Alexander. Things are so much harder on us now we use to talk on the phone for countless hours every night now its like maybe 20mins or real talking at the most. I just I dont know whats happening, I hate that its come to this because I NEVER EVERRR wanna lose him. He's my everything he completes my I dont know what I would do without him!

Welps i was kinda being nosie this morning and found pictures of him Scullering? I guess its called :)
Heres the link : https://www.sportgraphics.com/events/3947/photo_browser?school_id=2825&event_leg_id=24201&sculler_id=&commit=Refresh 

Its amazing , I would be scared shitless to be in a boat that close to the water!!!! OMG!!!

Anyways I'm Outies Almost time for Mr.Beanes Class :)
Peaces, Love<3, And MONKEYS haha

Danie<3

Then--:) Mine and Alexanders love song

Then lyrics
I remember, trying not to stare the night that I first met you
You had me mezmorized
And three weeks later, in the front porch light
taking forty-five minutes to kiss goodnight
I hadn't told you yet
but I thought I loved you then

Chorus

And now you're my whole life
now you're my whole world
I just can't believe the way I feel about you, girl
Like a river meets the sea,
stronger than it's ever been.
We've come so far since that day
And I thought I loved you then

And i remember, taking you back to right where I first met you,
You were so surprised
There were people around, but I didn't care
Got down on one knee right there once again,
I thought I loved you then

Chorus

And now you're my whole life
now you're my whole world
I just can't believe the way I feel about you, girl
Like a river meets the sea,
stronger than it's ever been.
We've come so far since that day
And I thought I loved you then

I could just see you, with a baby on the way
And I could just see you, when your hair is turning gray
What I can't see is how I'm ever gonna love you more
But I've said that before

And now you're my whole life
now you're my whole world
I just can't believe the way I feel about you, girl
We'll look back someday, at this moment that we're in
And I'll look at you and say
And I thought I loved you then
And I thought I loved you then






I love this song :) its amazing i had to download it on my ipod yesterday and i can't stop listening to it!