Have you ever had a time in your life were it was just so hard to hold on and you feel as if you have no one there for you when you need them. Well, i'm at that point if not below it :(. I know i have Alexander here as always but in my heart i feel like i'm just dreaming about our future sometimes. I am going crazy me and my mom started fighting again and she keeps saying shes gonna take everything away from me. I wanna move out i'm so sick of her! I'm not gonna be my brother and get treated like shit because she has no husband or son to mess with anymore :(. Just me as always. I have the most amazing luck, and this car wreck just topped it off. I'm so stupid for thinking my mom loved me and wanted to spend time with me and help me, she wants nothing but money. I hate my job they act like i'm useless and no wants anything to do with me. No one wants to talk or be friends, but on the other hand i dont need friends from their 95% of the people who work there are whores, do drugs, or just nasty. And friends, gosh i dont even know about that anymore. I miss hangout with tabby but its whatever, and just i dont know. i wand someone who can be there when Alexander can't. Uggghhh i'ma start looking for a roomate or something i need out of this house. I'm going to hurt myself or someone if i dont get a break its not worth the pain i feel.
Anyways it like 2 am i need to go to bed, i have a docters appt in the morning :(
maybe i'll go to school and be happy for once but i dout it ....
Anyways Night Night
Danie<3
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